cry and smile

PETER
I have a Bear,
His name is Peter.

Last Christmas I got it from someone,
He told me when i feel cold, i can hug this Bear to be warm
He told me when i feel lonely, i can hug this Bear to feel that he is beside me
He told me he will be back soon, it won't be long time
He aked me to be a nice girl, to be a strong girl, to grow up...
When he comes back, he wants to see a good girl...
Then he left... I even didn't hug him, i waved to him. He gone...
...

He left... he left here, he left me, he didn't come back to me, he forgot his promise...
He left from my world, forever... Now I have to forget him, forget everyhting, every tiny, single details that i own in last two and hald years...How can i do that?

Those are not only the momeries, they are my love to you, all my love...

Now I have a Bear,
His name is Peter...

my friend she wrote this letter on the last Valentine's Day. when I read, I cried . I do not know why i cried. shouldn't I have cried? if I do not cried, how could I smile.